It's almost midnight. I sit in a blue vinyl recliner at the local children's hospital. Not where I thought I would be sleeping tonight. Ezekiel is fast asleep resting peacefully. Every now and then I see him wiggle and I peak to make sure he is comfortable. This is not where I imagined we'd be when I woke up this morning. I had no idea a normal doctor visit would turn into a whirlwind of activity. As I rushed about to get our suitcase ready I was reminded that God was not rushing. As I frantically called family and friends for prayer, God was not surprised! In fact, not only was He not surprised but He had known about this moment before He hung the stars in the sky. He has been preparing the way for us without us even knowing it. What a wonderful comfort! Tomorrow my boy will be having surgery first thing in the morning. There are countless brothers and sisters in Christ praying. I find a peace that passes all understanding has invaded my heart and mind. As we wait for the test results to find out if there might be a "cause" for this disorder I am resolved to trust Him. I KNOW that nothing, and I do mean nothing can happen to my dear child that does not first pass through the hands of God. I know that God handpicked me to be this child's mother, to pray for him, train him, love him care for him, protect him, laugh with him and learn with him. And with as unmeasurable as my love is for him God loves Him more. Hard to believe but I know it's true. God can protect him better, provide for him more perfectly, train him more completely, delights in him more fully and teaches him faithfully. I know that when I give all the details over to the Lord then we are safe. I am weak, limited, emotional, lacking but God remains our refuge.
My heart rambling must stop for now. I am resolved to trust Him, I am at peace because of Him. I am steadfast fixed on Him.
With much love,
Mrs. Joseph Wood